My Heart Is Breaking


I’ve been sitting in a chair now for forty-three hours, not counting the 5 hours that I drove forty-five minutes home to take a shower, a nap, and then drive back. I also didn’t count the hours that I’ve spent pacing the hospital floors.

Just the chair time; forty-three hours (probably more by the time you read this).

It could be worse. The Girl Child has been in the hospital for much longer than the three days that we are currently at now, but honestly, this time is breaking my heart.

I hope this surgery was the right thing to do.

I’ve never seen her in so much pain, in my entire life.

So much pain that she is being nourished and hydrated almost entirely by IV. So much pain that when she sleeps, she holds her breath, her oxygen drops, her heart begins to race, and she wakes up in a panic.

She isn’t sleeping much, so neither am I.

I’m really tired; physically and emotionally, but she is my first concern.

Please pray for her.

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31 Comments

  • Anonymous
    January 15, 2017 at 1:17 pm

    Sending hugs, prayers, and strength to you and your beautiful girl ❤❤❤

  • Eatabagofrichards
    January 15, 2017 at 2:02 pm

    Hang in there, Eden. There's nothing harder than watching your child struggle and be in pain, and not being able to do anything about it. *hugs*

  • Anonymous
    January 15, 2017 at 2:48 pm

    My thoughts are with you and your daughter!Deena in LA

  • Naked pop tart
    January 15, 2017 at 4:50 pm

    praying for you both… 2 kings 20:5 .. The Lord says: I have heard your prayers and seen your tears . I will heal you.

  • sues2u2
    January 15, 2017 at 5:22 pm

    In our thoughts and prayers

  • Christa
    January 15, 2017 at 5:58 pm

    Praying for you both. Hugs to you and that sweet girl. Her body is healing and hopefully you'll look back and see was was worth it.

  • imadushbag
    January 15, 2017 at 7:55 pm

    there is nothing harder than being a parent to a sick child. the feeling of helplessness and did i do the right thing. being alienated from your family may be a good thing and here's why. my wifes family tried to blame my daughters illness on me, like i was smarter than the 13 doctors she had. instead of supporting us, they used it as a cover to attempt to take custody! instead of supporting me they added to my stress. i will pray for you both. i'm sure you did the right thing.

  • Carolyn De Neut
    January 15, 2017 at 8:36 pm

    Praying for you both from Michigan.

  • Evelyn
    January 15, 2017 at 9:22 pm

    awwww *hugs* They aren't giving her pain meds?

  • Steven Theiss
    January 16, 2017 at 3:48 pm

    My sympathies to all of you, Eden! Hospitals are never fun places to be, especially when you're worried about someone, and even more especially when that someone is your child. May the Lord comfort you and give you peace.

  • Anonymous
    January 16, 2017 at 4:40 pm

    My thoughts and prayers for your entire family and especially The Girl Child. I'm so sorry that she's in pain. Hugs from TX.

  • Jim F
    January 18, 2017 at 1:29 pm

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your daughter for peace and to be pain free and healthy. Hang in there, we're all with you!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:19 pm

    Sending you my thought and hope that this is just part of a process to stop any pain. You might want to have a PO BOX and let people send her cards and stuff! 😍 i know i would!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:19 pm

    I'm sure she would appreciate any love. Eden Strong, P.O. Box 121105, Chicago, IL 60612

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:19 pm

    Bless her ongoingly, and you, chosen family, and all her carers.

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:20 pm

    Praying for a speedy recovery for your daughter

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:20 pm

    Sending wishes for a speedy recovery your way!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:21 pm

    Hugs to you and your beautiful girl.

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:21 pm

    sending lots of love your way for safe and speedy healing!!!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:21 pm

    Sending positive thoughts and well wishes your way!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:22 pm

    Hey beautiful girl – my puppy Rocky wishes you feel better soon!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:22 pm

    Prayers

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:22 pm

    Prayers!!!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:23 pm

    Bless her very much!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:23 pm

    Best wishes for a quick recovery.and maybe some ice cream.

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:23 pm

    love and quick healing vibes sent! ❤

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:23 pm

    Prayers!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:24 pm

    Praying for a quick recovery!!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:24 pm

    Prayers for your girl!

  • Facebook
    January 18, 2017 at 7:24 pm

    Praying

  • Erica Mclean
    January 24, 2017 at 3:56 pm

    So sorry to hear, sending you both love

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