Because Tomorrow Will Be Tomorrow
I went shopping for my daughter today.
I honestly can’t remember the last time that I went shopping to buy my kids anything other than groceries, but today, today I went for something else.
And I didn’t really have the money for this, so I’m sure that I’ll be kicking myself about it next week, but for once in my life, I’m choosing not to think about next week.
Today I was thinking about today, and today I wanted to do this.
So for all of you that are going to leave me hateful comments and send me nasty emails about how I shouldn’t be eating at the food pantry and spending my money on “frivolous” things, well, I’m sorry, but today I’m not going to care, because today I needed to care about something else.
I needed to care about the daughter that proclaimed it “the best day ever!” and the little girl who wanted to be just like her friends. Today I cared about making her smile, and today I did that.
I shopped the clearance racks and went to multiple stores in order to be able to get everything that I needed within the budget that I’d set, but I didn’t buy anything used.
And it was fun. It was fun for me because I’ve shoved the desire to go shopping for cute girly things so far down my priority list that I feared I might never actually get to have that motherhood experience, but more than that it was fun because my daughter knew, that what I had gotten her was new.
And for a kid whose mom never buys her anything new, that made her feel special, which is great, because today I wanted nothing more than for her to feel special.
She got to put on a new dress, and a new pair of shoes. I left work early to do her hair, and gifted her with a new bracelet. I wanted tonight to be special, because I know that tomorrow, just like Cinderella, we will go back to all the things that happen when a husband and father abandons their family, but that’s tomorrow, that’s not tonight, and tonight, I wanted her to feel like a princess.
And when she walked down the stairs and saw her prince standing there in a suit, flowers in hand, I felt confident in the choices that I had made, simply because of the smile on her face.
Because tomorrow will be tomorrow, but tonight was the Daddy Daughter Dance.